Sunday, August 4, 2013

Dear Tara...4 Weeks Later




Dear Tara,

How has it only been a month since we said goodbye? It seems like so much longer since I last saw your beautiful face, heard the sound of your purr, and held your beautiful little body in my arms...you always were the perfect fit.

I wish I knew that you were ok without me. I try to imagine that you and your big sister Sashi have found each other and are taking kitty heaven by storm. I think you two together would be a force to be reckoned with.

I've put all of your toys in a special keepsake box with chickens all over it. When I saw it in the store it made me smile because you loved chicken more than just about anything. Your litter pan, food and water bowls, and cat carrier are all cleaned up and waiting in the garage for another kitty to use them. There's hardly a trace of you around yet I feel your presence everywhere.

My days seem so much longer and emptier without you here. You're still my first thought when I wake up in the morning and the last thing I think about when I lay my head down at night. Each night I still softly whisper goodnight to you...have you heard me?

You were perfect, but you knew that. From the moment we met you instantly stole my heart, and from the moment I opened your carrier in the living room that first day you made this house your home, and you made the house a home simply because you were there.

I know that you loved me until your last breath. I hope and pray that you know I will love you until mine. The memories of the time we had together will live on in my heart forever.

Until we meet again,

Mommy

21 comments:

  1. Tara was a special little girl and I'm sure the love between you two was special as well.

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  2. oh this made me cry :(
    Trust in the fact that YES TARA KNOWS!!! She is your Guardian Kitty Angel now, she is watching over you, you can count on that. She is with her sister and my Angel Bobo and they are all taking good care of each other.
    Bobo passed in 2007 and do you know I STILL have his carrier? I could never bring myself to empty it, it is in the closet. I still have some of his bowls too. :(
    Sending you comforting ((((hugs)))) and much love.
    This was a beautiful letter.

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    1. Caren, it's comforting to know that they're all hanging out together, isn't it?

      And I was planning on reusing her carrier and bowls but now I'm wondering if I shouldn't...

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  3. What a beautiful letter to Tara. She will always be in your heart. ♥

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  4. Brings tears to my eyes all over again. And I must go cuddle my kitties.

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  5. *huggles* I´m tearing up just reading this. Thinking of the ones I´ve lost and how long I´ve got left with my herd at home. I love my cats, but it´s heartbreaking when they have to go..

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    1. They always have to go way too soon.

      And Linda, your avatar with the kitty in his hoodie is the cutest thing ever!!!

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  6. *Hugs* Melissa...I'm crying over here myself :( I know what an incredibly heartbreaking time this is for you...it's a year and a half since I lost my Milo and I still miss him. But it does get a little better with time. I think it may have been slightly easier for me because I had Piper to help a bit. I'm thinking of you and Tara and I have to believe that our beloved companions are all in happy places now knowing how much we will love them forever!

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    1. Thanks Melissa, I've wondered if it's easier to have another cat there to share your grief with and not have to suddenly be completely cat-less.

      And I'm so thrilled that your Piper is doing better :)

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  7. So sorry to hear about your Tara, that is a beautiful letter. I have a couple of cats and had to have one put to sleep a few years ago, as nice as it was to be able to pick one up and cuddle it, it isn't the same because they each have their own personalities. I just held on to all the good times I had with him.

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  8. {hugs} Thinking of you & Tara.

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  9. Oh my goodness, Melissa. I have no words...except that this is beautiful. From one cat mom to another, I just want to say that my heart goes out to you. Although we've never met, I have no doubt that you were an amazing mom and Tara lived a very happy, privileged life. :)

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  10. The love you and Tara shared means you will ALWAYS be together in spirit. Surely you will see her again. Hugs, purrs and prayers to you.

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  11. Such a beautiful letter. I'm sitting here crying right now. Keeping you and Tara in my thoughts.

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  12. Brought tears to my eyes too. My thoughts are with you. Hugs.
    Sue B

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  13. Lovely sentiments and my thoughts are with you.

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